Station, drawing huge crowds, she stood nervously beside him. He took her cold hand, looked into her eyes, BoA, remember that I love you. She suffered a long time at that moment tears finally burst up. He gently hold her in my arms, I was thinking about to face the nearly six months, respectively, his chest aching.
He took the suitcase with one hand, pulled her hand, with the crowd slowly forward, while walking and still look back to see if she is not safe. She just let him numbly pulled forward, looking at his back trance. With whistles, car window, watching the train go farther and farther, past as movie playback in her mind gradually emerge.
She suddenly felt his legs felt weak, slowly squat body, head buried in his arms, any tears wanton slide down, just trembling shoulders exposed everything. Within the window, looking out the window of her disappearance figure, the same memories, like a flash of the sword pierced his heart. Those beautiful memories at this time is a bit unexpectedly poignant.
Preface
(one)
That year, in August, she alone took the suitcase into the unfamiliar campus, the haze month ago, she came here she is undoubtedly a relief. He, standing on the edge fate of loss, frustration came here by their parents persecution. That day, the sun is just right, he and she lying in the corridor, the warm sun hanging over them. Turned around, laugh, inexplicable feelings filled the air. In the long corridor, in front of the wearing overalls, a little baby fat girls look to the horizon when the warm smile that has allowed him a moment lost God. That, under the hot sun, she wore a tight black vest looking away with his Mercedes-Benz in the stadium, the muscle contour lines showing naked on the way out, the amount of sweat as big as beans continue to slide down, ticking drops her heart. Him, so without warning into her heart.
That day, he said that they saw him call him the little prince, he said to her, you are my princess, okay? That day, he took her home, she sat behind gently hugged him, the snow is slippery pavement, he said let her relax, her head against his back, close your eyes and slowly counting his heartbeat. That day, they sat side by side at the computer, he handed to floor with two powerful arms over her, she will head buried in his chest, looked up, his eyes are so gentle, he slowly down the thin lip gently covered her lips. That day, they had a fight, she ran most of the night to come and go from school aunt home, he would like crazy drilled from the fence to find her, no way anxious but helpless, he did not sleep a wink all night, the next morning up on the launch classmates find her. When she came back he blame her lips softly, eyes can delight or was she saw.
He said he was frantic, she does not believe, so that we also have to help him to testify. She Louguo his neck, his face gently in India under a kiss. That day, the old class called him to talk, that there will soon be learning the college entrance examination as the most important, change seats, and they are separated by a two and a hallway, afternoon physical examination, chest X-ray when the dark, he gently kissed her . That day, they go to Riverfront Park, and he wanted her to play with him, he would not let her hold his goals, and he was thrown, he proudly grin. That day, they told him to play, he ride carrying her, she threw a look at him, stared at the side, he ran over to pat her head, she gently help him wipe.
That day, they eat around Beidaihe all snacks, in every way left their footprints. That day, they rented a double ride, staring at the car in the seaside stroll. That day, they barefoot in the icy cold waters of cold shivering, hugging each other for warmth. That, to Shanhaiguan in the bus, she leaning on his shoulder and fell asleep, head accidentally sliding down, he gently helped her head back on his shoulders, dimly she saw in his eyes was so tender.
That day, they managed to get on the bus, he grabbed the railing, her arms around him, her in his arms, as if he gave her to build a small space, can not be violated. That, he said, can not sleep at night to chat with her, and she phone arrears, a person in the waiting room to sleep numb hands and feet, he was on the train frantic over the world to find her, she sat for more than an hour car buttoned message back to the dorm to see more than a hundred, he asked her to contact her girlfriends, she said she returned to the dormitory until he was relieved Laicui she quickly went to sleep. Instant her psychological defense to collapse, at the computer crying splinters. That day, he was holding Bear, he took her fear that she ran away without a watchful eye, to buy a ticket when it is not constantly look back at her still. That day, she sat in the waiting room crying hysterically, he hugged her breath, thinking that he would not lose her, she let him let go of her, he stubbornly said no. That day, the train was late, they laugh, he looked at her happily bounce, face spoiled.
(two)
Strange city, strange campus, strange people, when once again the face of these, she has lost the once passionate, she will always be remembered for his island. Across the phone, his voice is so far away, she tried to reach out and grab, but what touch broken, debris was blown breeze, dispersed in the air. Not wanted an island, one was actually as far away from the sea, so that the hearts farther and farther. Once, a distance of two people aisle; later turned into a sea and an island; now, actually evolved into a distance heart to heart. That time, distance, although far away, but close to the heart; this time, my heart has gone. They eventually separated, once the promise also disappeared in the wind. He recently had a quirk, something all right to go to space her turn to see her gone well, they settle down. Then, gently point under delete this access record. She also has a quirk, met to talk about happy things on the hair, bad mood will quietly recorded in the diary. To see her every day very well, his heart the pain that wire subsided a little. BoA, must be happy, waiting for me. Imagine her look, his heart meditation.
University, he did not live like that all day unexamined peers, he Chuaizhe own little dream for that beautiful future struggle in silence. Library, basketball court, bedroom, dining room, four-point line from the fingertips gently glide time. He still loves basketball, but simply feel that infatuation sweating. At that moment, on the court, it seems that only he and the basketball world. He likes listening eyes closed quietly pops the ball dropped to the ground issued. He habitually eyeing the stands, then suddenly realized that she had not on his side. He will always be remembered, that evening, the long corridor, the extra baggage of the girls dressed in overalls, that warm smile.
Sea side, her walk alone in the tree-lined trail, through the leaves of the gap, there are teenagers in the running, she journeying, looking at the boy on the court, his shadow slowly coincide with his shadow. Unconsciously, she was sitting in the stands watching the focus was shrouded golden sunshine boy, mouth Raising a sweet arc. Teenager leave, he did not, as usual came up to her, she consternation moment, then looked down to laugh at my ignorance, gently wipe away tears that drip crystal. People see the distance, the sunset, the girl sitting in the stands and gently hug yourself, get up, Yang Qilian, facing the sun exposed big smile.
Campus, her ponytail, white shirt, jeans, canvas shoes, like a man quietly sitting in the library, a book, a glass of milk, a afternoon. His short hair, sportswear, basketball shoes, like to follow a bunch of brothers fight in court, a ball, a group of people, one evening.
On both sides of the sea, he lived quietly with her own little life. Love basketball Sunshine Boys always give people a good impression, little pink dream letterhead, warm milk, carries a two girls. Whenever you receive these, he will always think of that time, she then, she always gave him a little warmth inadvertently, that was the kind of girl delicate. She grumbles complained he did not understand romance, he put an arm around her and stick her head in his chest and let her listen to the heartbeat thump thump.
Today, in the face around those boys given a romantic, she just closed my eyes slowly finding that thump thump heartbeat. I do not know when, in her world, notes that heart has become the most beautiful melody. That would be his and her little romance.
Four years flashed by, since after the separation, she did not say a word to him, buttoned message and not returning. Not that she hated him, but afraid to face, for fear of accidentally leaked his little mind, fear of exposing his cowardice. She always wanted to own the sunniest side show to him, she was afraid he saw his grief. Four years did not change her love for him, for other boys a little warm, she is not moved in mind, but the thought of him, her look defeated, instinctively rejected them. She did not know the purpose of doing so in the end is what, just tell her own heart, she must do so. Some people can not tell where the good, but no one can replace.
(three)
After graduation, he found a good job in a foreign company, after two years of struggle, already have their own little house and car. It is time, he took out his mobile, deftly finger pressing the string of familiar number. Toot toot, his heart trembling with excitement. Hear her voice, his heart could not help but soft, and I in you downstairs, down please? She froze three seconds, slippers bolted down. Goes face familiar and unfamiliar face, she just stared at . She saw him slowly came up to her, she gently in his arms, BoA, our little house and our car I was ready, we get married!
車站,人山人海,她不安地站在他身旁。他握住她冰涼的手,看著她的眼睛,寶兒,記住,我愛你。她忍了很久的眼淚終于在那一刻決堤了。他輕輕擁她入懷,想到即將面臨的將近半年的分別,他的胸口隱隱作痛。
他一只手拉著手提箱,一只手拉著她,隨著人流慢慢向前,邊走還不時回頭看看她是不是安全。她只是麻木地任憑他拉著向前,望著他的背影出神。伴隨著汽笛聲,車窗外,看著火車越走越遠,往事如同回放的電影在她的腦海中漸漸浮現(xiàn)出來。
她突然覺得雙腿發(fā)軟,慢慢蹲下身,將頭埋在雙臂間,任淚水肆意滑下,只是顫抖的雙肩暴露了一切。車窗內(nèi),望著窗外的她消失的身影,同樣的回憶,就像一把把利劍剎那間刺穿了他的心。那些美麗的回憶在這時竟顯得有點兒凄美。
序言
(一)
那年,八月,她獨自拉著手提箱,走進陌生的校園,對于一個月前的陰霾,來到這里對她來說無疑是一種解脫。他,站在去留的邊緣無所適從,在父母的逼迫下無奈來到這里。那天,陽光正好,他和她趴在走廊上,暖暖的陽光籠罩著他們。轉(zhuǎn)頭,相視一笑,莫名的情愫充斥在空氣中。在長長的走廊上,眼前這個身穿背帶褲,有點兒嬰兒肥的女生在望向天邊時那暖暖的笑容竟讓他一時失了神。那天,熾熱的日光下,她望著遠處身著黑色緊身背心的他在球場奔馳,肌肉的線條輪廓就那樣赤**地呈現(xiàn)出來,額上豆大的汗滴不斷滑下,滴答滴答滴在了她的心頭。他,就這樣毫無預(yù)兆地闖入了她的心房。
那天,他說她們見了他都叫他小王子,他對她說,以后你就是我的公主好不好?那天,他送她回家,她坐在后面輕輕摟著他,下雪了路面很滑,他說讓她抓緊,她將頭貼在他的背上,閉上眼慢慢數(shù)著他的心跳。那天,他們肩并肩坐在電腦前,他霸道地用兩條有力的胳膊樓過她,她將頭埋在他胸前,抬頭,他的眼神是那么溫柔,他慢慢低頭,將薄薄的唇輕輕覆在她的唇上。那天,他們吵架了,她大半夜從學(xué)校跑出來去了大姨家,他瘋了似的想從護欄鉆出去找她,卻無奈干著急沒辦法,他整夜沒合眼,第二天一大早起來就發(fā)動同學(xué)去找她。等到她回來他嘴上輕聲責(zé)備她,可眼底的欣喜還是被她看到了。
他說他急瘋了,她不信,還非得讓大家?guī)退髯C。她摟過他的脖子,在他的臉上輕輕印下一枚吻。那天,老班叫他談話,說快高考了要以學(xué)習(xí)為重,換座位了,他們之間隔了兩個人和一個過道,下午體檢,胸透的時候,黑暗中,他輕輕吻了吻她。那天,他們?nèi)I河公園,他要她跟他打球,她抱著他不讓他進球,結(jié)果他還是投進了,他得意地壞笑。那天,他們叫他一起去打球,他騎車載著她,她在一旁看他一個一個往里投,看呆了,他跑過來拍拍她的頭,她用手輕輕幫他擦汗。
那天,他們吃遍了北戴河所有的小吃,在每一條路上留下他們的腳印。那天,他們租了一個雙人騎,瞪著車子在海邊漫步。那天,他們光著腳丫,在冰涼冰涼的海水里凍的瑟瑟發(fā)抖,緊緊抱著對方互相取暖。那天,去山海關(guān),在公交車上,她靠在他的肩膀上睡著了,頭不小心往下滑,他用手輕輕把她的頭扶回肩上,朦朧中她看到他的眼神是那么溫柔。
那天,他們好不容易擠上公交車,他抓著欄桿,她摟著他,她在他懷里,就像是他給她搭建的一個小空間,不容侵犯。那天,他說晚上不敢睡覺要陪她聊天,結(jié)果她手機欠費,一個人在候車室睡到手腳發(fā)麻,他在火車上急瘋了,滿世界找她,她坐了一個多小時的車回到宿舍看到扣扣留言一百多條,他還讓她的閨蜜聯(lián)系她,等到她說她回到宿舍了他才放下心來催她趕緊去睡覺。瞬間她的心理防線就塌了,對著電腦稀里嘩啦地哭。那天,他抱著大熊,拉著她,生怕她一不留意就跑了,去買票的時候還不斷回頭看她是不是還在。那天,她坐在候車室歇斯底里地哭,他抱得她喘不過氣來,他以為這樣就不會失去她,她讓他放開她,他倔強地說不。那天,火車晚點,他們相視一笑,他看著她高興地蹦蹦跳跳,滿臉的寵溺。
(二)
陌生的城市,陌生的校園,陌生的人,當(dāng)又一次面對這些時,她已經(jīng)失去了曾經(jīng)的熱情,她總是會想起島外的他。隔著電話,他的聲音是那樣遙遠,她試圖伸手去抓住,卻一下觸碎了,碎片被微風(fēng)吹散,彌散在空氣中。不曾想一座島,一片海的距離竟是那樣遙遠,以至于兩顆心越走越遠。曾經(jīng),是兩個人和一個過道的距離;后來變成了一片海和一座島;如今,竟演變成心與心的距離。彼時,距離雖遙遠,但心很近;此時,心早已遠去。他們終究還是分開了,曾經(jīng)的諾言也消逝在風(fēng)中。他最近有了一個怪癖,有事沒事就去她的空間轉(zhuǎn),看到她過得好,便安下心來。然后,輕輕點下刪除本次訪問記錄。她也有一個怪癖,遇到開心的事就發(fā)說說,心情不好了就默默記錄在日記本上??吹剿刻於歼^得很好,他心底的那絲疼痛也一點點消退了。寶兒,一定要開心,等我。想象著她的樣子,他心里默念。
大學(xué),他沒有像同齡人那樣整天渾渾噩噩度日,他揣著自己小小的夢想為了那美麗的未來默默奮斗。圖書館,籃球場,寢室,食堂,四點一線的時光從指尖悄悄滑過。他依舊愛籃球,只是單純地迷戀那種大汗淋漓的感覺。那一刻,在球場上,似乎世界只剩下他和籃球。他喜歡閉著眼靜靜聆聽球落在地上發(fā)出的砰砰聲。他總是習(xí)慣性地將目光投向看臺,然后恍然大悟,她已經(jīng)不在他的身邊。他總是會想起,那個傍晚,那個長長的走廊,那個身著背帶褲微胖的女生,那個暖暖的笑容。
海的那一邊,她獨自漫步在林蔭小道上,透過樹葉的縫隙,球場上有少年在奔跑,她癡癡地望著那個少年,他的影子慢慢與他的身影重合。不知不覺,她竟坐在看臺上專注看那個被金色陽光籠罩的少年,嘴角揚起一個甜美的弧度。少年離去,他沒有像往常一樣向她走來,她驚愕片刻,繼而低頭嘲笑自己的無知,用手輕輕抹去眼角那滴晶瑩的淚滴。遠處的人們看到,夕陽下,少女坐在看臺上輕輕抱抱自己,起身,揚起臉,對著陽光露出大大的笑臉。
校園里,她,扎著馬尾,白襯衫,牛仔褲,帆布鞋,喜歡一個人靜靜地坐在圖書館,一本書,一杯牛奶,一個午后。他,短發(fā),運動裝,籃球鞋,喜歡跟著一幫兄弟在球場廝殺,一個球,一伙人,一個傍晚。
海的兩邊,他和她平靜地過著自己的小生活。愛籃球的陽光少年總是能給人帶來好感,粉紅色的信箋,溫?zé)岬呐D?,懷揣的一個個女生的小小夢想。每次收到這些,他總是會想起那時的她,那時,她也總是會在不經(jīng)意間帶給他小小的溫暖,那是屬于女生的那種細膩。她嘟著嘴抱怨他不懂浪漫,他一把把她摟在懷里,將她的頭貼在自己胸口,讓她聽那撲通撲通的心跳。
如今,面對身邊那些男生所給予的浪漫,她只是閉上眼慢慢尋找那撲通撲通的心跳。不知何時,在她的世界里,那心跳的音符已成為最動聽的旋律。那是屬于他和她的小浪漫。
四年的時間一晃而過,自從分開后,她沒有跟他說過一句話,扣扣留言也不回。不是她恨他,只是怕面對,怕一不小心就泄露了自己的小心思,怕暴露了自己的懦弱。她總是想把自己最陽光的一面展現(xiàn)給他,她怕他看到自己的悲傷。四年的時間也沒有改變她對他的愛,對于其它男生小小的溫暖,她不是沒有動過心,但一想到他,她一下就敗下陣來,本能地拒絕了他們。她不知道自己這樣做的目的到底是什么,只是心里的自己告訴她,她必須這樣做。有些人說不清哪里好,但誰也替代不了。
(三)
畢業(yè)后,他在一家外企找到了一份不錯的工作,經(jīng)過兩年的奮斗,已經(jīng)有了自己的小房和小車。是時候了,他拿出手機,手指麻利地按下那串熟悉的號碼。嘟嘟嘟,他的心激動地顫抖。聽到她的聲音,他的心不由得柔軟了,我在你家樓下,下來好嗎?她愣了三秒鐘,穿著拖鞋狂奔下來。面對那張熟悉又陌生的臉,她只是瞪著大眼睛呆呆地望著。她看到他慢慢向她走來,輕輕將她摟在懷里,寶兒,我們的小家和我們的小車我都準(zhǔn)備好了,我們結(jié)婚吧!
He took the suitcase with one hand, pulled her hand, with the crowd slowly forward, while walking and still look back to see if she is not safe. She just let him numbly pulled forward, looking at his back trance. With whistles, car window, watching the train go farther and farther, past as movie playback in her mind gradually emerge.
She suddenly felt his legs felt weak, slowly squat body, head buried in his arms, any tears wanton slide down, just trembling shoulders exposed everything. Within the window, looking out the window of her disappearance figure, the same memories, like a flash of the sword pierced his heart. Those beautiful memories at this time is a bit unexpectedly poignant.
Preface
(one)
That year, in August, she alone took the suitcase into the unfamiliar campus, the haze month ago, she came here she is undoubtedly a relief. He, standing on the edge fate of loss, frustration came here by their parents persecution. That day, the sun is just right, he and she lying in the corridor, the warm sun hanging over them. Turned around, laugh, inexplicable feelings filled the air. In the long corridor, in front of the wearing overalls, a little baby fat girls look to the horizon when the warm smile that has allowed him a moment lost God. That, under the hot sun, she wore a tight black vest looking away with his Mercedes-Benz in the stadium, the muscle contour lines showing naked on the way out, the amount of sweat as big as beans continue to slide down, ticking drops her heart. Him, so without warning into her heart.
That day, he said that they saw him call him the little prince, he said to her, you are my princess, okay? That day, he took her home, she sat behind gently hugged him, the snow is slippery pavement, he said let her relax, her head against his back, close your eyes and slowly counting his heartbeat. That day, they sat side by side at the computer, he handed to floor with two powerful arms over her, she will head buried in his chest, looked up, his eyes are so gentle, he slowly down the thin lip gently covered her lips. That day, they had a fight, she ran most of the night to come and go from school aunt home, he would like crazy drilled from the fence to find her, no way anxious but helpless, he did not sleep a wink all night, the next morning up on the launch classmates find her. When she came back he blame her lips softly, eyes can delight or was she saw.
He said he was frantic, she does not believe, so that we also have to help him to testify. She Louguo his neck, his face gently in India under a kiss. That day, the old class called him to talk, that there will soon be learning the college entrance examination as the most important, change seats, and they are separated by a two and a hallway, afternoon physical examination, chest X-ray when the dark, he gently kissed her . That day, they go to Riverfront Park, and he wanted her to play with him, he would not let her hold his goals, and he was thrown, he proudly grin. That day, they told him to play, he ride carrying her, she threw a look at him, stared at the side, he ran over to pat her head, she gently help him wipe.
That day, they eat around Beidaihe all snacks, in every way left their footprints. That day, they rented a double ride, staring at the car in the seaside stroll. That day, they barefoot in the icy cold waters of cold shivering, hugging each other for warmth. That, to Shanhaiguan in the bus, she leaning on his shoulder and fell asleep, head accidentally sliding down, he gently helped her head back on his shoulders, dimly she saw in his eyes was so tender.
That day, they managed to get on the bus, he grabbed the railing, her arms around him, her in his arms, as if he gave her to build a small space, can not be violated. That, he said, can not sleep at night to chat with her, and she phone arrears, a person in the waiting room to sleep numb hands and feet, he was on the train frantic over the world to find her, she sat for more than an hour car buttoned message back to the dorm to see more than a hundred, he asked her to contact her girlfriends, she said she returned to the dormitory until he was relieved Laicui she quickly went to sleep. Instant her psychological defense to collapse, at the computer crying splinters. That day, he was holding Bear, he took her fear that she ran away without a watchful eye, to buy a ticket when it is not constantly look back at her still. That day, she sat in the waiting room crying hysterically, he hugged her breath, thinking that he would not lose her, she let him let go of her, he stubbornly said no. That day, the train was late, they laugh, he looked at her happily bounce, face spoiled.
(two)
Strange city, strange campus, strange people, when once again the face of these, she has lost the once passionate, she will always be remembered for his island. Across the phone, his voice is so far away, she tried to reach out and grab, but what touch broken, debris was blown breeze, dispersed in the air. Not wanted an island, one was actually as far away from the sea, so that the hearts farther and farther. Once, a distance of two people aisle; later turned into a sea and an island; now, actually evolved into a distance heart to heart. That time, distance, although far away, but close to the heart; this time, my heart has gone. They eventually separated, once the promise also disappeared in the wind. He recently had a quirk, something all right to go to space her turn to see her gone well, they settle down. Then, gently point under delete this access record. She also has a quirk, met to talk about happy things on the hair, bad mood will quietly recorded in the diary. To see her every day very well, his heart the pain that wire subsided a little. BoA, must be happy, waiting for me. Imagine her look, his heart meditation.
University, he did not live like that all day unexamined peers, he Chuaizhe own little dream for that beautiful future struggle in silence. Library, basketball court, bedroom, dining room, four-point line from the fingertips gently glide time. He still loves basketball, but simply feel that infatuation sweating. At that moment, on the court, it seems that only he and the basketball world. He likes listening eyes closed quietly pops the ball dropped to the ground issued. He habitually eyeing the stands, then suddenly realized that she had not on his side. He will always be remembered, that evening, the long corridor, the extra baggage of the girls dressed in overalls, that warm smile.
Sea side, her walk alone in the tree-lined trail, through the leaves of the gap, there are teenagers in the running, she journeying, looking at the boy on the court, his shadow slowly coincide with his shadow. Unconsciously, she was sitting in the stands watching the focus was shrouded golden sunshine boy, mouth Raising a sweet arc. Teenager leave, he did not, as usual came up to her, she consternation moment, then looked down to laugh at my ignorance, gently wipe away tears that drip crystal. People see the distance, the sunset, the girl sitting in the stands and gently hug yourself, get up, Yang Qilian, facing the sun exposed big smile.
Campus, her ponytail, white shirt, jeans, canvas shoes, like a man quietly sitting in the library, a book, a glass of milk, a afternoon. His short hair, sportswear, basketball shoes, like to follow a bunch of brothers fight in court, a ball, a group of people, one evening.
On both sides of the sea, he lived quietly with her own little life. Love basketball Sunshine Boys always give people a good impression, little pink dream letterhead, warm milk, carries a two girls. Whenever you receive these, he will always think of that time, she then, she always gave him a little warmth inadvertently, that was the kind of girl delicate. She grumbles complained he did not understand romance, he put an arm around her and stick her head in his chest and let her listen to the heartbeat thump thump.
Today, in the face around those boys given a romantic, she just closed my eyes slowly finding that thump thump heartbeat. I do not know when, in her world, notes that heart has become the most beautiful melody. That would be his and her little romance.
Four years flashed by, since after the separation, she did not say a word to him, buttoned message and not returning. Not that she hated him, but afraid to face, for fear of accidentally leaked his little mind, fear of exposing his cowardice. She always wanted to own the sunniest side show to him, she was afraid he saw his grief. Four years did not change her love for him, for other boys a little warm, she is not moved in mind, but the thought of him, her look defeated, instinctively rejected them. She did not know the purpose of doing so in the end is what, just tell her own heart, she must do so. Some people can not tell where the good, but no one can replace.
(three)
After graduation, he found a good job in a foreign company, after two years of struggle, already have their own little house and car. It is time, he took out his mobile, deftly finger pressing the string of familiar number. Toot toot, his heart trembling with excitement. Hear her voice, his heart could not help but soft, and I in you downstairs, down please? She froze three seconds, slippers bolted down. Goes face familiar and unfamiliar face, she just stared at . She saw him slowly came up to her, she gently in his arms, BoA, our little house and our car I was ready, we get married!
車站,人山人海,她不安地站在他身旁。他握住她冰涼的手,看著她的眼睛,寶兒,記住,我愛你。她忍了很久的眼淚終于在那一刻決堤了。他輕輕擁她入懷,想到即將面臨的將近半年的分別,他的胸口隱隱作痛。
他一只手拉著手提箱,一只手拉著她,隨著人流慢慢向前,邊走還不時回頭看看她是不是安全。她只是麻木地任憑他拉著向前,望著他的背影出神。伴隨著汽笛聲,車窗外,看著火車越走越遠,往事如同回放的電影在她的腦海中漸漸浮現(xiàn)出來。
她突然覺得雙腿發(fā)軟,慢慢蹲下身,將頭埋在雙臂間,任淚水肆意滑下,只是顫抖的雙肩暴露了一切。車窗內(nèi),望著窗外的她消失的身影,同樣的回憶,就像一把把利劍剎那間刺穿了他的心。那些美麗的回憶在這時竟顯得有點兒凄美。
序言
(一)
那年,八月,她獨自拉著手提箱,走進陌生的校園,對于一個月前的陰霾,來到這里對她來說無疑是一種解脫。他,站在去留的邊緣無所適從,在父母的逼迫下無奈來到這里。那天,陽光正好,他和她趴在走廊上,暖暖的陽光籠罩著他們。轉(zhuǎn)頭,相視一笑,莫名的情愫充斥在空氣中。在長長的走廊上,眼前這個身穿背帶褲,有點兒嬰兒肥的女生在望向天邊時那暖暖的笑容竟讓他一時失了神。那天,熾熱的日光下,她望著遠處身著黑色緊身背心的他在球場奔馳,肌肉的線條輪廓就那樣赤**地呈現(xiàn)出來,額上豆大的汗滴不斷滑下,滴答滴答滴在了她的心頭。他,就這樣毫無預(yù)兆地闖入了她的心房。
那天,他說她們見了他都叫他小王子,他對她說,以后你就是我的公主好不好?那天,他送她回家,她坐在后面輕輕摟著他,下雪了路面很滑,他說讓她抓緊,她將頭貼在他的背上,閉上眼慢慢數(shù)著他的心跳。那天,他們肩并肩坐在電腦前,他霸道地用兩條有力的胳膊樓過她,她將頭埋在他胸前,抬頭,他的眼神是那么溫柔,他慢慢低頭,將薄薄的唇輕輕覆在她的唇上。那天,他們吵架了,她大半夜從學(xué)校跑出來去了大姨家,他瘋了似的想從護欄鉆出去找她,卻無奈干著急沒辦法,他整夜沒合眼,第二天一大早起來就發(fā)動同學(xué)去找她。等到她回來他嘴上輕聲責(zé)備她,可眼底的欣喜還是被她看到了。
他說他急瘋了,她不信,還非得讓大家?guī)退髯C。她摟過他的脖子,在他的臉上輕輕印下一枚吻。那天,老班叫他談話,說快高考了要以學(xué)習(xí)為重,換座位了,他們之間隔了兩個人和一個過道,下午體檢,胸透的時候,黑暗中,他輕輕吻了吻她。那天,他們?nèi)I河公園,他要她跟他打球,她抱著他不讓他進球,結(jié)果他還是投進了,他得意地壞笑。那天,他們叫他一起去打球,他騎車載著她,她在一旁看他一個一個往里投,看呆了,他跑過來拍拍她的頭,她用手輕輕幫他擦汗。
那天,他們吃遍了北戴河所有的小吃,在每一條路上留下他們的腳印。那天,他們租了一個雙人騎,瞪著車子在海邊漫步。那天,他們光著腳丫,在冰涼冰涼的海水里凍的瑟瑟發(fā)抖,緊緊抱著對方互相取暖。那天,去山海關(guān),在公交車上,她靠在他的肩膀上睡著了,頭不小心往下滑,他用手輕輕把她的頭扶回肩上,朦朧中她看到他的眼神是那么溫柔。
那天,他們好不容易擠上公交車,他抓著欄桿,她摟著他,她在他懷里,就像是他給她搭建的一個小空間,不容侵犯。那天,他說晚上不敢睡覺要陪她聊天,結(jié)果她手機欠費,一個人在候車室睡到手腳發(fā)麻,他在火車上急瘋了,滿世界找她,她坐了一個多小時的車回到宿舍看到扣扣留言一百多條,他還讓她的閨蜜聯(lián)系她,等到她說她回到宿舍了他才放下心來催她趕緊去睡覺。瞬間她的心理防線就塌了,對著電腦稀里嘩啦地哭。那天,他抱著大熊,拉著她,生怕她一不留意就跑了,去買票的時候還不斷回頭看她是不是還在。那天,她坐在候車室歇斯底里地哭,他抱得她喘不過氣來,他以為這樣就不會失去她,她讓他放開她,他倔強地說不。那天,火車晚點,他們相視一笑,他看著她高興地蹦蹦跳跳,滿臉的寵溺。
(二)
陌生的城市,陌生的校園,陌生的人,當(dāng)又一次面對這些時,她已經(jīng)失去了曾經(jīng)的熱情,她總是會想起島外的他。隔著電話,他的聲音是那樣遙遠,她試圖伸手去抓住,卻一下觸碎了,碎片被微風(fēng)吹散,彌散在空氣中。不曾想一座島,一片海的距離竟是那樣遙遠,以至于兩顆心越走越遠。曾經(jīng),是兩個人和一個過道的距離;后來變成了一片海和一座島;如今,竟演變成心與心的距離。彼時,距離雖遙遠,但心很近;此時,心早已遠去。他們終究還是分開了,曾經(jīng)的諾言也消逝在風(fēng)中。他最近有了一個怪癖,有事沒事就去她的空間轉(zhuǎn),看到她過得好,便安下心來。然后,輕輕點下刪除本次訪問記錄。她也有一個怪癖,遇到開心的事就發(fā)說說,心情不好了就默默記錄在日記本上??吹剿刻於歼^得很好,他心底的那絲疼痛也一點點消退了。寶兒,一定要開心,等我。想象著她的樣子,他心里默念。
大學(xué),他沒有像同齡人那樣整天渾渾噩噩度日,他揣著自己小小的夢想為了那美麗的未來默默奮斗。圖書館,籃球場,寢室,食堂,四點一線的時光從指尖悄悄滑過。他依舊愛籃球,只是單純地迷戀那種大汗淋漓的感覺。那一刻,在球場上,似乎世界只剩下他和籃球。他喜歡閉著眼靜靜聆聽球落在地上發(fā)出的砰砰聲。他總是習(xí)慣性地將目光投向看臺,然后恍然大悟,她已經(jīng)不在他的身邊。他總是會想起,那個傍晚,那個長長的走廊,那個身著背帶褲微胖的女生,那個暖暖的笑容。
海的那一邊,她獨自漫步在林蔭小道上,透過樹葉的縫隙,球場上有少年在奔跑,她癡癡地望著那個少年,他的影子慢慢與他的身影重合。不知不覺,她竟坐在看臺上專注看那個被金色陽光籠罩的少年,嘴角揚起一個甜美的弧度。少年離去,他沒有像往常一樣向她走來,她驚愕片刻,繼而低頭嘲笑自己的無知,用手輕輕抹去眼角那滴晶瑩的淚滴。遠處的人們看到,夕陽下,少女坐在看臺上輕輕抱抱自己,起身,揚起臉,對著陽光露出大大的笑臉。
校園里,她,扎著馬尾,白襯衫,牛仔褲,帆布鞋,喜歡一個人靜靜地坐在圖書館,一本書,一杯牛奶,一個午后。他,短發(fā),運動裝,籃球鞋,喜歡跟著一幫兄弟在球場廝殺,一個球,一伙人,一個傍晚。
海的兩邊,他和她平靜地過著自己的小生活。愛籃球的陽光少年總是能給人帶來好感,粉紅色的信箋,溫?zé)岬呐D?,懷揣的一個個女生的小小夢想。每次收到這些,他總是會想起那時的她,那時,她也總是會在不經(jīng)意間帶給他小小的溫暖,那是屬于女生的那種細膩。她嘟著嘴抱怨他不懂浪漫,他一把把她摟在懷里,將她的頭貼在自己胸口,讓她聽那撲通撲通的心跳。
如今,面對身邊那些男生所給予的浪漫,她只是閉上眼慢慢尋找那撲通撲通的心跳。不知何時,在她的世界里,那心跳的音符已成為最動聽的旋律。那是屬于他和她的小浪漫。
四年的時間一晃而過,自從分開后,她沒有跟他說過一句話,扣扣留言也不回。不是她恨他,只是怕面對,怕一不小心就泄露了自己的小心思,怕暴露了自己的懦弱。她總是想把自己最陽光的一面展現(xiàn)給他,她怕他看到自己的悲傷。四年的時間也沒有改變她對他的愛,對于其它男生小小的溫暖,她不是沒有動過心,但一想到他,她一下就敗下陣來,本能地拒絕了他們。她不知道自己這樣做的目的到底是什么,只是心里的自己告訴她,她必須這樣做。有些人說不清哪里好,但誰也替代不了。
(三)
畢業(yè)后,他在一家外企找到了一份不錯的工作,經(jīng)過兩年的奮斗,已經(jīng)有了自己的小房和小車。是時候了,他拿出手機,手指麻利地按下那串熟悉的號碼。嘟嘟嘟,他的心激動地顫抖。聽到她的聲音,他的心不由得柔軟了,我在你家樓下,下來好嗎?她愣了三秒鐘,穿著拖鞋狂奔下來。面對那張熟悉又陌生的臉,她只是瞪著大眼睛呆呆地望著。她看到他慢慢向她走來,輕輕將她摟在懷里,寶兒,我們的小家和我們的小車我都準(zhǔn)備好了,我們結(jié)婚吧!